It has been a long (and fast) few weeks since our world changed. Brian has been working in the city while the girls and I stay on the coast and wait for the closing on our Portland home. The weekdays are often hectic and lonely as I manage things here by myself. My camera has been out of order for several weeks, causing a steady stream of Instagrams as I continue my habit of freezing a few of these moments, to remember and cherish as the days rush on.
Despite my reservations with gardening after we found out about the move, we have managed to gain a fair amount of our fruits and veg of the season from its bounty. Potatoes, salad greens, kale, radishes, cilantro, strawberries, salmonberries, and onions have all been gathered, while the carrots, blueberries, raspberries, sugar peas and garlic continue to thrive and promise a delicious harvest.
All this change was unexpected, and in the opposite direction we were anticipating (I guess that full-on farm/homestead will have to wait a bit longer), but as all the doors flew open, we decided to step through. Moving forward. Waiting and breathing.
I hate having projects and items looming on a to-do list. I stress if something needs to be done – it doesn’t matter if it is a month away. It will bother me until I can check it off. Do now, rest later. The only problem with this mentality is: the rest never comes. There is always more to do, forever something to add.
I drive my husband crazy on road trips. I will want to stay up all night to get the drive over with rather than rest and enjoy the experience. This attitude translates into my daily life. I often take on too much, convinced that it needs to be done. With babies to care for and raise, this mindset has become a challenge. Nowadays, if I can keep everyone well fed and content, I have accomplished much.
The past week has been filled with projects and activities, with me stressing to complete them within my unrealistic time-frame. So no informative post today. Just a reminder to let yourself breathe sometimes. There is forever something that needs to be done. It will all be accomplished, when it needs to be. Enjoy the day and the people God has blessed you with. Do something on your list, and then take some time to pick dandelions with a toddler, or giggle with a baby. These are the truly important moments in life.